Inside a Bully Part 2

            This weekend, I visited my family in mesa where all of my stories have occurred. It has been bitter sweet to see and remember all that I could of this place. I have had an amazing time with my family and sadly haven’t spent much time at all with any of my happy memory friends.

This Sunday, I went back to church with all of these friends of mine and the ones who weren’t so friendly. I got to listen to a talk given to none other than Ammon Fisher. This boy had been a problem to me longer and more consistently than any other. He being used to having no one but my oldest brother in the ward, was startled to see my entire family of 8 in our seats. I honestly can tell you that I had even stronger feelings of hate towards him from all of the time of peace I’ve had. The memories that his face alone brings caused me to boil. We only made partial eye contact but I saw enough.

He looked sad. I don’t even know how to feel now. I think this break from each other has caused reflection in his life. He actually feels bad for what he’s done and for the first time in my entire life, I actually felt compassion for him. I fought it for a while but he truly was ashamed. He gave a nice talk on being an example. I still see problems but there is progress made in his life and family. I am grateful for the church and all that it can to a man’s life.

 I know that it was essential that I moved when I did for everyone to progress to a new stage in their lives. I guess we were quite the road block. We ourselves were at the end of our road. I feel that everything is for a reason and that there are no coincidences. We are all born here on this earth in this exact location. We were planed out perfectly by our heavenly father. We may feel like it’s our plans but in all actuality, it’s not. He knows all, future and past. He put us together to make the correct future whether or not we obey his commandments. I moved away so that Jared can find peace and friendship without competition. Heath now can learn the next step and fend for himself now that he has enough confidence. Robert had become too dependent on us as a crutch. We let him begin his first flights out of the nest. Ammon had some free time where there’s no one to mess with any more. Heath is bullet proof from what he’s gone through and Robert was driven out of priest corm all ready and had changed schools. So that left Kyle and Ammon with no one left. Eric has moved away and the other boys matured up and dropped the hate. Now Ammon was ready to see another victim. He didn’t want to see his victim though. He for the first time ever showed me that he was sorry and yet, I still ditched a meeting with them and hung out with Robert instead. It was best this way. Who knows, maybe I will see him tomorrow. I am going to bring as much of this screwed up mess back together and catch up.

People can change and overcome any obstacle. There is always an opportunity, given through the lords plans, for us to change. I know that there will always be work to be done and that there is always a way to change. Life doesn’t always have to be the same. Change is good and required. Life will hand us options but no matter which way you go, it will always be a part of the lord’s plans for you. So find time to smile, because that is a choice too. To be happy, is an important thing to change if we are not there yet. Our attitudes towards obstacles are essential to our ability to find our way out. We have to fight our problems and hunt for success whether or not it’s coming. Lest we never know if we could of beat it.